Monday, April 27, 2009

MY Personal Struggle

WARNING: Some whining, bitching and complaining ahead!


Let me start this post by saying this: I am very thankful to be pregnant! And I know how very blessed I am to be pregnant! And I realize that many changes are on their way, body and non-body! I already am completely in love with this child and absolutely can't wait to hold he/she in my arms and spoil he/she rotten and love on them like crazy!!! CAN NOT WAIT!


But, I am not loving my body these days! Most of you are familiar with my weight gain after marriage and then my tough journey to lose it! I worked my butt off and sacrificed so much to lose that 24 pounds and I really had this serious sense of accomplishment. I finally did what I had been needing to do for years. I changed my lifestyle of eating! Almost two months after reaching that goal, Hubs and I began trying for a little one. And our first try was a wonderful/miraculous one! At the end of January, I found out I was pregnant. Now let me also say, I lost that weight for a few reasons:


1. To be a healthier me!

2. So I wouldn't have it to lose it AFTER I got pregnant. I could just focus on losing baby weight not all the extra!

3. So that I felt good about myself again when looking in the mirror or putting on a bikini!


Well, as soon as I found out I was pregnant, I said (and I quote) "I am not going wild and eating anything in sight. Just because I am pregnant doesn't mean I have to eat more (yet) and it doesn't give me the right/excuse to eat whatever I want!" Well ladies, I am here to admit today that I did just the opposite of what I said for about the last 8 weeks! I haven't completely blown it every single day! But you see, it's hard for me because I am not a healthy eater by nature. I don't LOVE veggies! I don't LOVE meat! I LOVE pizza, pasta, Mexican food and not so good for you food! And because I did this, I have gained 15 pounds in 15.5 weeks of pregnancy! Some have said, "Oh that's not bad Lynds." To me: IT'S DISGUSTING! Because I am 15.5 weeks, I don't really look pregnant, I look like I have gained 15 unanswered pounds! And I am miserable!


I have always had a self image problem. I have yo yo dieted my whole life! People keep reminding me (like I don't know ) "You are pregnant! Your body is going through so many changes! You are going to gain weight girl! Accept it." Ok, I have accepted that I will gain weight, but how much I gain is up to me! And I really let myself down these first 15 weeks. I know that now is not the time to lose weight and I am certainly NOT trying to do that, I am just trying to cope with how my body is changing and I needed an outlet to let it all out (thanks for listening girls)!


For once in my life, I can't push myself to the almost dying point at the gym. I am not a gym wuss! I workout HARD! I mean "legs are going to break" hard! And I can't do that now. I have also always gone to the gym to make myself skinner not healthier (sad to admit, but it's true and I am being honest here) So I feel like I am working out for nothing! I know I am working out for many great reasons but when I can't push myself to almost exhaustion, I feel like it's worthless! And with our move into the new house and anniversary trip, I skipped 3 weeks of working out! But no worries, I am back on the running/walking and body pumping bandwagon! Don't worry, it's all been ok-ed by my Dr.


I feel like I am so different in this weight gain so early because I had NO morning sickness! Not one single time! Which I am thankful for. So many girls I know that are (or were) pregnant had it and they even lost weight their first trimester! I am not envious of their puking but I am envious of their lack of weight gain the 1st trimester! As selfish and horrible as that sounds it's true!


My friends that read this know the issues I have always had with my body! Since middle school. I wish it weren't that way, but it's who I am! I keep reminding myself, I got it off once, and I can do it again! But it scares me that I might not get back to where I was, and where I was, was HAPPY! Finally happy with the way I looked.


Some people say things like "Oh I love my stretch marks, they remind me of the wonderful experience I went through to bring this child into this world!" I think it's wonderful to think that way! I wish I could, but I can't!! I will curse those things if I get them and I won't want them there! I will probably cry over them! I had one friend say "Oh my wife gained 35 lbs and she hasn't lost it all and I don't care if she ever does and she doesn't either!" First of all, neither of them are gym rats like Hubs and I! And they have never HAD to watch their weight and struggle the way I have! If I don't lose all the weight, I do think I will care (quite a bit)! I honestly am more worried about my "body changing forever" (I have heard this so many times) than I am about the actual weight gain! I can handle it for 9 months to a year, but I don't know about forever!


Do let me say, some people have said "Take what your mom gained and that is probably what you will do!" Well my mom GAINED 85 POUNDS WITH ME! Now, let me also say my mom is very tall like me (5'9"). She was like a size 2 or 4 when she had me. I mean skinny as a rail! And after she had me until I was in middle/high school she was really skinny! So I say to myself "If mom can gain 85 and lost most all of it, I can gain 40 and lose all of it!"


I realize this post makes me sound so self obsessed and selfish! I am likely to receive some negative comments over it. But please understand, I know the experience I am going through is one that not every woman gets the blessing of going through. And I know how lucky I am! I thank God that I am able to carry this child and go through this wonderful experience! I am just trying to cope and trying to deal with these changes the best I know how! If I gain 100 lbs I know that it will be worth it once I hold my sweet angel in my arms. But until then, I am likely to be self conscious about these changes! But I am trying hard to love and embrace them no matter what!


Everyone has their own personal struggles. This is mine! It's a tough one to deal with!


Also, for those of you who don't mind sharing! I am just interested to know: (if you would rather email me, that is perfectly fine. I am open to any and all advice!)


How much weight you gained (or have gained) during pregnancy?

How much did you lose after?

Was it easy or hard?

How did you do it?

Are you ok with the fact that you did/didn't lose it all?



I promise not to judge! I am just curious! :)

56 comments:

Peace, love, and Big said...

Aw! You are GORGEOUS! I hope that you are okay and I completely understand what you are saying evne though I have never been through it an it won't be anytime soon that I do... but I do wish you the very best and I hope that when it's all said and done you are happy with yourself, no. matter. what!

Becca said...

Oh girl, I totally feel you! I understand, I really do! My son will be 4 this year and I still haven't lost the baby weight. But! I finally started Weight Watchers last week (lost 3.7 lbs this week, ha!) because I realized that this weight just isn't going to come off without doing something. I weighed 115 lbs when I got pregnant with my son, and I weighed 174 lbs the day I had him. So yeah, I gained a crapload of weight, not fun! I think I have been in denial over the past 3 1/2 years, thinking that I can still eat anything I want and not gain weight! Wrong! But just know that you are cooking up a little bun in that oven, so try not to stress about it. Eat well, exercise as much as your doctor says you can, and I can guarantee you will be fine! I did not exercise or eat well while I was pregnant AT ALL, which is why I am now paying for it! You will be fine as long as you take care of yourself during your pregnancy!

Lindsey said...

Aww sweet friend. Your honesty is so refreshing and what I love most about you!!
First off, you are gorgeous!!! Second, I struggle with weight too and love all the worst food too!
Third, I can't answer these questions based on personal experience, but I just talked to my mom about this. She gained about 40 lbs with me, and then joined WW after I was born and was at her goal weight in about 13 months.

Tara Gibson said...

girl, i know i am going to have a tough time dealing with the weight gain too, so I can realate even though I am not preggo. Just try to stay positive and enjoy every min of this expierience. You have the self motivation to loose every ounce and probably more after your baby arrives! Dont deprive yourself, and listen to you body. It will all be ok : ) you are beautiful!

Jennifer said...

Thanks for your honesty! I think I would feel the same way!

Beth said...

I totally understand where you are coming from. It's very hard to accept all the changes that are happening. I am very petite (5'1) and gained 25lbs with Olivia. I didn't do anything to loose the weight except take care of her. I would find myself not remembering the last time I ate!

I am sure everything will be just fine after baby gets here. You before and after pictures are great!

Blue-Eyed Bride said...

i can relate because i lost 40 pounds before getting pregnant. i was at my ideal, absolutely happy, goal weight on my wedding day. i gained fifteen pounds after the wedding then i got pregnant.

i didn't gain a pound during the first trimester because of my horrible sickness and that was not fun. since then, i've gained about 40 pounds. no lie. i see pictures of myself and cringe because my face is just huge. but i'm honestly not that worried about it. i have 4-6 weeks left of this and they say that you gain AT LEAST one pound every week in your last trimester. i know that once he comes out, i will do everything i can to lose those 40 pounds and get my body back.

you are concerned about it and you have great exercise habits. you will get it back. it's a big enough deal to you that it's going to happen. don't worry!

Adventures in Newlywed said...

You're gorgeous, and even though I've never been through pregnancy I'm sure that you will have no problems losing the weight. No worries. My cousin gained 40-ish pounds with both of her children and lost it in about 6 months just by breast feeding and watching her portion sizes. You'll do great!

Danielle (Life with the Hewitt Family) said...

The best thing that helped me loose that baby weight was breastfeeding.

I lost most of the weight I put on but I am sad to say that I have gained back a lot of it - I kept using the excuse of having a baby to justify my unhealthy eating. Then I realized that I used that excuse WAY too long.

My body did change and I am working on getting that back in shape. After having my son was the first time I ever had to worry about gaining weight - before I could eat whatever I wanted and not worry about putting on pounds - so I am having a hard time adjusting to this change still!

I am confidient that you will loose any baby weight you put on.

Jennifer said...

I'm slightly worried about it too even though I have a while before I would even have to think about it, but I'm doing my research now so that I'm prepared!

I believe that you probably will loose most of it simply because you are conscious about it. Make sure to ask your doctor when you will be able to hit the gym after you have your little bundle of joy and start right away. Your body will probably be more willing to loose the weight while you're still breastfeeding {which burns tons of calories all by itself!}. You just have to believe in yourself!

Emily said...

well... I am really glad you shared this post.. makes me really proud of your honesty... and I know that it took a lot to post it.. and because you are concerned about your body changing, etc... doesnt mean you arent excited about the baby.. we all have things we stress.. flip out about.. worry about while being pregnant.. U even said it.. you are a gym rat.. you strive to go to the gym and feel good.. like you have really gotten a great workout when you leave. That drive will still be with you after you have the baby. I will email you some information I have learned from a family member who struggled as well...
Just know u can vent to me all you want.. shoot me an email or a text...
love you!

SassyEngineer said...

Oh girl! You are allowed to vent when you need to (you can even do it through G-chat if you want, we haven't talked in a while!) Anyway, I am still working on loving my body and getting in shape so don't ever feel like you are alone in body image issues. I think that sometimes that is part of being a woman. Anyway, maybe today you can start over and try to eat better today, but just take it one step at a time. As for gaining weight in general when being pregnant, I KNOW you will be able to take it off because you are dedicated and disciplined so don't even worry about it. You will be looking like a hot momma before you know it (you still look great pregnant by the way!) Have a good monday, friend :)

Lea Liz said...

Okay girl... it's okay to feel like this, I promise!! I never had to really watch what I ate but I did workout, hard a lot!! I am 5'8 and was between 140-145 lbs before I was pregnant and a size 4-6. I told myself I wanted to stay between 30-40 lbs during my pregnancy and I blew that out of the water!! I was hungry all the time, I would try to pick healthier options and I would still gain weight, I think it is just what your body does! I think a lot of it to is kinda almost genetic like how much your mother/sister gained? I ended up gainign a total of 65 lbs with brody. It was hard to go thru to watch my body change so much. I would cry. I ended up getting stretch marks because of this awful rash I had where I just would itch and itch. I was being vain but this was my body I had worked so hard on and it was changing. It took me awhile to get used to it and I did. Brody is 4 months old and I have lost 45 lbs just by breatsfeeding and some walking here and there. My body is different and it is going to take some time/work to get it back but I think it will. Brestfeeding helps alot!!!!! It's okay to feel like this, really I think we all do it. But I will say to... it is worth it so much.... My stretch marks werent awful so they are already fading.. It is hard, I agree but you will get used to it. I will say I didn't exercise once it got cold and I couldnt be otuside so that may of hurt me some too.. Your body just goes thru so much.. I know.. Goodluck girl!!!!!

Chic Runner said...

Hey girl, I know I am you're little running buddy and this post is honest and that's what bloggin' is all about. Thanks for sharing your feelings and being honest. You are so true to yourself, and I love that! :)

Erin said...

I’m so sorry you feel this way..it made me cry to read that because I feel like you are telling my story (minus the baby). I have no clue what your going thru with the pregnancy but the weight thing is always on my mind. I have never been super skinny and prob. never will be..and that’s ok...but I spent most of 2007 dieting and lost 70Lbs and since Nov. of 2007 have put it all back on. All I can think about is having to do this all over again (so I can enjoy being thinner and happier) and then AGAIN when I am ready to have a baby. I always said I was going to keep off the weight so that I didn't go into being pregnant really over weight and disgusted with myself. Its scary and very uncomfortable and no one should ever fault you for having your own insecurities and struggles! I don't even know what to tell you but I'll be thinking of you! Thanks for sharing and revealing who you are inside!

Miss. Pretty said...

Thanks for being honest. I'm not pregant..or will be for a LONG time.. but I think I would have a VERY hard time with gaining weight! Whats good about you is you have the determination to lose it after the baby comes..and I bet your hubby will motivate you if he's a gym rat :)

Sarah said...

Hey girl.... I was wondering when this post was coming.... let me tell you, you have nothing to worry about... you were the reson I joined the fit train and your e-mails to help keep my on track, your encouragement, and your story got me through it. You were super tough and you did so you will be super tough the second time around but it will be easier because you alreay know that YOU CAN DO IT... simply because you already did. I send you an e-mail right now

Southern said...

Some people struggle with the weight gain, some don't. You're actually not doing that bad - you are typically supposed to gain 1 lb per week during the first two trimesters, and then it slows down. I was like you, had gained 8 lbs since marriage and wanted to lose about 15, but I didn't before a got pregnant (which you did, and that is so great because you won't have to worry about it later). I would say I still have about 7-8 lbs of baby weight on me, but if I would try harder, it would come off. It's just not been that big a priority for me, but if you know how to do it and have successfully done it, you can do it again. Don't beat yourself up over it because it's all part of the deal. We can't all be Heidi Klum and pop out a baby and be on the catwalk two weeks later. You're probably just feeling chubby because you don't really feel pregnant yet and other people can't really tell you're pregnant. Just wait until you get further along, you won't even think about the weight because you will actually FEEL pregnant. Hang in there and make this one of those things you just let go - you can work on it once the little one comes along.

The Pink Chick said...

I totally understand where you are coming from. I am not pregnant, but the fear of gaining weight is what is keeping me from being on the baby band wagon. I love your honesty!

TexasLauren77 said...

Don't be so hard on yourself...for gaining the wait or for being self-conscious about it! It's a new and exciting time for you with a lot of unknowns, and I think it's only natural to feel a little uneasy with that. But, I just know you are going to be just fine and will look beautiful, no matter what! Hang in there! Hugs from Texas!

Naturally Caffeinated Family said...

we need to meet one day!!=) haha! you are not obsessed or selfish! i'll e-mail you!=)

Carrie said...

I gained 19 pounds with Ansleigh and I threw up probably 20 times a day the entire pregnancy. As sick as I was, I would cry just looking in the mirror!

Right after I had her, looking in the mirror was worse but YOU WILL BE FINE.

It didn't take me long to be back in my pre-pregnancy clothes (a month or so) without really doing anything, but my body is just different now. For the first time in my life, all my weight stays in my stomach--GROSS.

The only advice I have is register for a good jogging stroller because it will be MUCH harder to get to the gym (or anywhere) once the little sweet one gets here. :)

Katie said...

Thank you for being so honest---please know that we're all rooting for you! I know it's a bummer to gain weight. You're very determined and seem like such a strong person. I'm sure the lbs will peel off as soon as you have the baby.

I know when I have kido's I'm going to have to work hard to get back down to my size. I hate those moms that say they lost the weight by chasing after their kids. Whatever!

Stay strong chica....we all love ya!

Tracy's Porch said...

First of all, who told oyu they love their stretch marks? I can understand eventuallyaccepting and dealing but loving???

I feel for you!! It is all so very hard. And you have every right to vent yet still love that little baby inside you.

I wasn't allowed to gain a whole lot with Ashley and was able to stick to it and lost it fairly quickly but put it right back on her first year of life. You are WAY more disiplined than me so I don't see that happening to you at all.

Julia said...

first off- you are gorgeous at any weight!! like everyone is! I always think that the smaller you are the more pregnancy weight affects you, like my sis in law only gained like 10-15 pounds the whole time, but she was already overweight to begin with. Also since you are already used to the gym/ dieting routine it will be easier for your to shed those extra pounds when the time comes!

I know that won't totally change the way you feel about yourself, because these things are really easy to say, but really hard to believe and act on. but just some encouragement, your healthy lifstyle will come back as soon as little baby is out and about.

but if you have no place for the baby to go, then it comes out in weight and that's how your body is acting to prepare you for the pregnancy but also the stressful time of the new baby arrives, when you can barely eat your so tired, and the nourishment that baby will need through breastfeeding (even if you don't choose to do it, your body is prepping for it anyway).

so hope you get to a place where your happy with the new bod- but at the same time body/weight issues are there for all ladies, so don't feel bad about it- at least you are honest about how you feel, many people are not!!

Miss E said...

Aww, sweet girl, I loved the honesty of this post. You are always allowed to share your feelings with us, no matter what! Your concerns are valid and I applaud you for bringing them into the open. I'm know there are other women out there who feel the same way. That's what I love so much about this blogging community - we don't have to feel alone!

You are absolutely radiant, inside and out. Enjoy your time now :)

~Mrs. Guru~ said...

I have never been pregnant so I am a non expertise in this department. But I feel the same way. What happens when I do get pregnant and what if I can't get back to my pre-pregnancy weight. Hang in there you are a beautiful person!

Brown Eyed Girl said...

I love that you posted about this! I think it's something that a LOT of women feel and worry about but think they will look like they aren't excited about being pregnant or ungrateful.

I think the feelings you are having are completely normal, especially for your first time! You have no idea what to expect and then your body is changing like crazy...I would be freaking out too!! You worked so hard to get your post wedding weight off and I have no doubt that you will do the same with your post baby weight!

And who on earth loves stretch marks??? That's kind of crazy!

The Shabby Princess said...

Girl, you don't sound self obsessed or anything to me!! Those are all the same concerns that run through my head when I think about having children. I work hard to be healthy and look good(ish)--not ever looking this way again scares the beejeezus out of me!!

You will be a wonderful mommy, and if you can take the weight off once, I know you can do it again. It might be harder this go around, but, you'll be SO proud of yourself.

Hugs!!

Allison said...

Healthy eating does not come naturally to me, either. Instead of beating yourself up over making less-healthy choices lately, focus on what you can change, like what you put in your mouth today.

My Home - My Life said...

I am sure you look great. Hang in there and I am sure you will have no problems getting the weight off after the baby is born... Sounds like you have great health goals!

Katy said...

Oh girl, I totally understand what you are talking about. I am 12 1/2 weeks pregnant and am trying to adjust to the changes my body is experiencing. I haven't gained very much at this point, but have felt pretty yucky this first trimester. Believe me, you don't want to be sick! It sounds like you are very motivated to work out and I don't think you will have any trouble getting the weight off after this sweet baby is born! You are beautiful - just take care of yourself and this baby, and all will be ok!

amybyrd said...

I am so glad you posted this--I am a new follower. I lost 60 pounds about 5 years ago with weight watchers and have been gaining and losing the last 10 pounds almost every year(esp this newlywed year). And gaining weight after I had to work so many years to lose it is one of my greatest fears of pregnancy. Weigh issues are always going to be there for me and I understand your feelings and concerns, i will follow your journey, as I know there are no easy asnwers.

Petunia said...

I didn't watch what I ate during my pregnancy and yet gained only 25 lbs. I just have a very fast metabolism and always have. After the pregnancy I lost about 30-35 lbs due to breastfeeding and a lot of stress. It was really bad and I felt awful. When things eventually eased up I went back to my regular weight.
I think it is mostly genetic. Just don't worry too much about it--just focus on being healthy! :)

sweetandfit said...

u can't say that I can relate, but my sister gained so much weight during her pregnancy, and i think she just came to the realization that she needed to focus on having a healthy baby instead of focusing on her weight - hope you can stay strong and positive through this!

morewineplease said...

ok 5'1"remember....
I gained 60 lbs with the first PG
took mr 9 mos to lose it, but I lost more than I had gained
I gained 40 lbs with the 2nd PG
took me 6 mos to loose it
breast feeding did NOT help me lose any weight, it doesn't work for everyone. I actually ended up taking diet pills from my doctor.
I felt as round as I was tall. Something that most my family and friends always tell me, the body and face changed after I had the first one... its look she took all the roundness and baby fat from my face! NICE!!
You will be just fine... we all go through this, those people that only gain 15 lbs in pregnancy have more than amazing self control! Its not natural.

miss said...

I have had 3 pregnancies.
1. gained 45 lbs and dropped it fast plus a little extra.
2. gained 35 lbs dropped it quickly after I stopped nursing again lost a little extra.
3. gained 30 lbs, it's been 19 months and I can not loose it. Mostly my fault, eat too much and exercise is hard to come by.

Sounds to me that you have good focus on self image and that you won't let it be a problem. You are absolutley beautiful.

Krystyn said...

I'm sure everybody already said this...but don't be so hard on yourself. You look great!

Everybody is different and every pregnancy is different!

You might not gain a pound for 3 more months. You never know.

1st pregnancy-gained 27lbs (taught 6-7 aerobics classes a week). Lost it within 8 weeks (but my body was never the same).

2nd pregnancy-gained about 30lbs. I'm back to my pre-pregnancy weight, but believe me, I don't look like it!

You can do it, and you will. Try not to stress about it too much. Do your best to be healthy and eat healthy and that's all you can do:)

d.a.r. said...

Well no pregnancies for me. But I can totally sympathize. I have always had body issues; I spent years with coaches critiquing my body and telling me that at 5'7 and 110 I was a fat ass. Kind of hard to take as a teenager and I still hear those voices in my head. And no I am no longer 110 :). But as much as I want babies, the idea of "losing control" over my body flippin' terrifies me. I don't think you are alone in this and I don't think it makes you self-obsessed or a horrible mom. You are just normal.

But I have a feelin' you will be back to your amazing body as soon as your little bebe is born! I know you are going to work hard, so don't give yourself too hard of a time right now.

And btw--my mom gained 65lbs with me. And she was only 5'4 and weighed 95lbs pre-pregnancy! That was like almost a whole 'nother mama on her body!

Rachel said...

Oh honey - this is natural and you are not alone!!! Here is my pg past =)

1. Claire - gained almost 50lbs and thought I was going to lose my mind!! I was only 22 and I could not believe it!! I lost it all pretty quick, but things just shifted in my body and I had to work to get back to normal, took a couple months!

2. Owen - gained only 25lbs and took no time to get it off and then I worked really hard to get down much smaller...I thought I was done =).

3. So now here I am at #3, and I think I have only gained 10-15lbs (I go next week and will be 22 weeks). Now I was soooooo sick in the beginning and lost weight so I am just now getting on track. Let me tell you I have the appetite of a grown MAN!!!

Being pregnant is so hard as we have so many hormonal issues in addition to all these physical changes. I know you are hearing everything and are tired of it...but try to relax and enjoy yourself. You are a very dedicated person obviously and I would bet you will no problems taking it off in the end! Also - you are going to feel so much better the farther you get along, know what you are having and start feeling those sweet kicks, TRUST ME! =) Email some time rbrown@us.loreal.com

Gwen said...

I've already told you my feelings on the subject so I'll let that slide. ;) But I will tell you that I gained 36.5 pounds with Ellie and I walked out of the hospital 34 pounds lighter. I got really sick while breast feeding and ended up extremely thin by her first birthday (and I hadn't been breast feeding for a while) I had a lot of problems that first year. Now I wish I could blame my current weight gain on her but that wouldn't be fair. LOL!!!

But...I think we are a lot alike and you'll be pretty active like I was with a newborn. I was always doing something or playing with Ellie. I would also swing her in her carseat to make her smile or put her to sleep. I had the best mom arms for a while. You'll get back to your pre-pregnancy self in no time!!!

XOXO

Brunch at Saks said...

Just found your blog...LOVE it! :)

Lucky in Love said...

God gave you your baby at the perfect time...right when you were healthy enough to carry it. I am so confident that you will be back down there again. You'll want to eat well and healthy as an example for your child...which will certainly be motivation enough!

Thinking of you...

Mojito Maven said...

oh love. i'm sorry you're feeling this way, but i know you and i know how important looking and feeling great is so i know that you will have no problems getting that weight off after your little one comes! xoxo

Jesslee said...

So sorry you are feeling this way. I think you are beautiful and I know you will be able to lose the weight you put on during your pregnancy. Just enjoy these coming months, after all you are growing a little person in that belly. haha!
I won't go-on about my pregnancy b/c I was young (20) & had the metabolism of, well a 20 y/o. Anyways, after experiencing a pregnancy at such a young age, now I too have major stress in wondering how my body will react next time around (getting ready to start trying for #2). I definitely don't have that same metabolism any more and I too don't have the best eating habits (no veggies or dairy, too much sugar, salt and bread!). After some research for myself, these are my suggestions: Try to eat a healthy balanced diet, drink plenty of water for skin hydration, keep skin moisturized, massage belly and stretch mark prone areas often, take your prenatal vitamins, wear a belly band, and continue low impact exercise and yoga or pilates. Also, here are some fun articles from celebs on their pregnancies:
http://celebrity-babies.com/2007/08/26/shanna-moakler-4/

http://www.people.com/people/article/0,,20256989,00.html

http://www.etonline.com/news/2008/01/56875/index.html

http://www.people.com/people/article/0,,20267886,00.html

http://www.fitpregnancy.com/style/star_moms/belly-laughs-40729657.html

http://www.people.com/people/article/0,,20273076,00.html

http://www.usmagazine.com/pregnant-tori-spelling-models-a-bikini

Enjoy!

a H.I.T. said...

I totally understand everything you are saying. Weight is a tough issue - whether you are pregnant or not - and what makes it even tougher for pregnancy is that you can't even begin trying to lose the weight until 6 weeks after the baby is born!!! For women with weight issues, that's like an eternity.

My only advice, is try to enjoy the experience, weight gain and all. If your upset with yourself and your weight the entire time, you might miss out on some pretty important moments. I know it's easier said, then done, but rather than working at eating less, I would work on enjoying pregnancy more.

The Ross Family said...

You read my blog, so I'm sure you have noticed that I am obsessed w/ my weight during my pregnancy! I completely understand where you are coming from. My doctor told me from the get-go, b/c of my height and weight when I got preggo's...that I would probaby gain b/w 25-35 lbs. total. He's been pretty right so far. I am 34 weeks, and have gained 24 lbs. My mom gained about 30 w/ me, so I am thinking I will too. He did also say that the taller/smaller a woman is, the more weight she'll gain. I am 5'6, and you've got some height on me! Don't worry though.... if you are motivated and smart, you'll lose it, especially if you breastfeed!

Lindsey said...

I have never commented before but have been reading your blog for quite some time. I think you need to count your blessings. Be thankful that the first month worked. Be thankful that you don't have 25 pounds of infertility treatment weight and no baby or baby bump. Be thankful that you are fortunate enough to experience the good and bad of pregnancy.

There are so many more important struggles in life than someones body image while pregnant. I would give anything to be able to simply get pregnant on my own. I think this is a pretty shallow post if I am being completely honest. I do give you props for writing an entire post on something you know will and rightfully should get negative feedback.

You can lose the weight you gain. I can not "lose" the diseases and conditions that cause my infertility.

LyndsAU said...

To the blogger above (Lindsey): I said in my post how thankful I am to be pregnant. I don't take if for granted one single day. I thought I got that point across. We all have our struggles and this is mine! I am so sorry for what you are going through. I truly am! I pray that God will bless you with a child very soon!
But believe me when I say, I am not a shallow person this is just my SOMETHING that I worry about and no matter what anyone says, everyone has something!

Jesslee said...

Being honest and being shallow are too very different things. I don't think you are shallow for having these thoughts or for posting about it. I think it's great that we can share our lives in the blog world and be honest about our feelings. People need to take a look inside theirselves and be happy for all they have and shouldn't be negative towards others. Everyone has their own issues in life and shouldn't look at others and judge. Being honest is not being negative. I know you are a great person and hope other peoples negativity doesn't sway your feelings or honesty. I think your FABULOUS!!!

Lindsay said...

Aww, congrats on the baby! I understand....I gained 30 lbs. with my daughter and knew it was going to come off....and well it did! Then I have somehow gained it all back over the past year I have been at home with her and let us just say I'M ON A DANG DIET RIGHT NOW...killing myself to loooose before August!I think you'll be just fine, it is just something you have to work at and I haven't as much as I should have! My downfall is that I have always worked and staying at home (which I am glad I can do) has not helped matters! :) Anyway....after baby gets here you will be so overjoyed...then just make it a goal to get back down to size. You can do it!

Kitty Cat said...

First of all, I hope you get to reading this comment, because you have SO many commenters, that I wonder when you get the time to read us all.
But what a wonderfully honest, touching post. I feel very much the same as you. I haven't gained that much yet, but I'm also terrified of not being able to lose the weight afterwards, and I'm terrified of my "body changing forever". I also don't want my body to change, I was happy with it the way it was before pregnancy - I was VERY happy, as I was also working out and eating right. I'm now 14 weeks pregnant and have gained about 7 pounds - not a lot, but you know what? I'm STARVING all the time, and my body/appetite is making me eat, eat, eat! If you are feeling the same, then I can understand why you're eating all the "wrong" foods. BECAUSE YOU'RE HUNGRY ALL THE TIME. Or maybe that's just me. But I find that I'm trying to eat healthy but it's just not cutting it - a carrot is not satisfying my hunger the way a nice burger would. You know?

All I can say is that after the pregnancy is when you will be able to really knuckle down and focus on losing weight. It's hard, I know. Hang in there, I'm there with you. Maybe we can motivate each other after our babies are born, to lose the weight!
Much love

Erica said...

I totally feel your pain!!! I never had one day of sickness and gained 42lbs. I am 5'2 and am small and petite (been that way my whole life) It took 6ms to lose all that weight and magically I got down to my pre-baby weight! I swore it was never coming off. That 5lbs at the end was horrible! But one day I got on the scale and that Fabulous # appeared! I do walk about 2 miles every day so it HAS to be done with exercise! Hang in there girl! And you DONT HAVE TO EAT FOR TWO!!! Just eat your regular amount like you werent prego and you will maintain a healthy weight gain! Good luck! I love reading your blog by the way! I attended Auburn as well and I love hearing what you have to say! Cant wait for you to find out the sex!!! Congrats!!!-Erica

kkparris said...

thank you for sharing..i am not pregnant and as far as we know i cant have children...but i do know what it is like to struggle w/weight.thank you for always being so honest in your blogs..i really enjoy reading!! i have always thought you were SO BEAUTIFUL and classy...i cant imagine you looking any way other than fabulous!!!keep on blogging..you brighten my day!! lots of love and best wishes...remember you are beautiful!!!!!!

gigi said...

hi! i totally get what you are saying! i was the same, yet a little different. when i got pregnant with my first, i was 102 lbs. i'm 5'3", and i've always been teeny, i had NEVER excersized, but was active. i went up to 154 with her! i was a mess. i gained EVERYWHERE. i always pictured myself being one of those girls that just got the little basketball tummy, had the gorgeous *glow* and didn't show anywhere else. umm. yeah. my rump looked as pregnant as my belly, my chin found a few new friends to hang out with, my nose looked like it had swelled up, and my shoulders, oh lord, don't even get me going. i was a mess my whole pregnancy. i lost my body, and worse yet, the maternity clothes at the time made me look 10 times worse...i know you're thinking if that was possible, but it was. i cried and cried to my husband, and was devestated about all of it (except for the part about the darling little girl growing inside of me) but even she got a few earfulls about what she was doing to me...once i had her, i slimmed down and was 10 lbs away from my original weight in 2 1/2 months. i was soooo happy! i fit back into all my clothes, my chest was fuller (totally enjoyed that), and i saw the light at the end of the tunnel. that's when i found out. i was pregnant again. yup. i told the dr. that he was mistaken, that i just HAD the baby, and pointed to the 2 1/2 month old swaddled in the pumpkin seat. he shook his head, and said, no, your doing it all over again. needless to say, i sank into a depression, refused to talk about the pregnancy to anyone blamed my husband and ignored the fact that it was really happening. BUT. that pregnancy, i only gained 19 lbs. and i lost all of it, plus the 10 that i hadn't lost with the first almost a month after i had my son!

Sarah Danielle: Jeune Marie said...

I am totally not there yet, but I appreciate your honest outlook on this. I can totally see a lot of woman feeling this same way and you are so brave to share your fears. I really think I am going to be the same way!